#48 Posted on August 2, 201718 Comments

#48.
The Fear of Julia Haw
2011
36x48in.
Oil on Canvas, Acrylic Montana Spray Paint
(This piece is available with price on request)
My greatest fear is somewhat hypothetical – It is if I were to be at the end of my life with regrets. This is rooted in the thought that a part of me had lived with fear – that I didn’t take a particular chance because I didn’t feel my work or my self was worth it. I positioned myself in the painting with arms out and face obscured, presenting myself as a sort of martyr. In reality, I try my damnedest never to live this way. The most dangerous place to be is resting in the idea that I “might not make it,” that it’s difficult for any artist to reach that top tier of success. In layman’s terms, fuck that. I am spending and will continue to spend my life shooting for the moon. What else is there?? I can only think of Langston Hugh’s poem “Harlem:”
“What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore—
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over—
like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?”
For 120 days I will be posting a painting of mine, starting from 2006 and working forward in chronological manner.
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18 comments

  1. One of my favorite paintings – and I’m NOT confining the judgment to your work, as worthy a context as it sets!

  2. “Fabulous,”(notice I’m changing my adjective ) besides the great value work on the body, the background is perfect.

  3. I just love hearing your thought process. This series is very close to my heart. Working in hospice for a decade made me so sure of our last days here. Our purpose the peace in passing on to a higher power. After see my father pass so suddenly at a…

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